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[09 Jul 2005|04:34pm] |
i am who i am
not because of friends
not because of trends
my life, till my end
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[03 Jul 2005|11:59pm] |
i'll build a rocket and shoot it high enough in the sky
so that we both can see it's exploding lights
oh how my neighbors will complain of the noise
i hope your neighbors are heavy sleepers
i would feel so bad waking up families all over the world
i hope i am not in for more than i bargained with this
i'm not much of an engineer let alone a rocketeer
but i'll give it my best for a chance to share something with you
just promise me you'll keep your eyes peeled
we'll be home together soon
but for now we have these rocket dreams
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[02 Jul 2005|12:16am] |
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ya they were right summer did swallow us whole but i made it out and you're stuck in this town i guess it's just like getting old it catches up on you so fast and sooner or later you're relying on others to do the simplest chores you lead yourself to this ending this story untold congraduations you are so cool
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[01 Jul 2005|11:43pm] |
What became of everyone I used to know?
Where did our respectable convictions
go?
Your words don't match the story that your actions show,
but what do I
know?
I'm sure you can't help but
remembering I thought you'd be the one
not to forget,
but remembering's not helping you yet.
Say goodnight means
goodbye.
I know you thought my life would stop with you away.
Maybe I can
see you on the holidays,
but you're worlds away.
I've never forgotten all
our yesterdays
but I'm lucky if we're speaking on the holidays.
The
evidence presents itself accusingly,
your absense speaking everything you
think of me.
Now that I am faced with opportunity,
you're not
remembering.
I'm not asking you anyway.
Even if you ever could cave
in,
I wouldn't know where to begin.
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| i bet you clean up nice |
[30 Jun 2005|02:47pm] |
she said not to beconfused with love, but i like the time we spend
in one ear and out the other, i was hooked and she knew it
she could have told me the world was ending and i would have went for the hills
but i could believe she didn't feel the same way
day after day lying to myself in my dreams
dreams of our future funny she would have just called it mine
she told me i looked nice in white and that i cleaned up real nice
i told her she always looked fine, this time it just wasn't a cheap line
but just as before just like every other time we parted with only a goodnight
and i was left wanting more
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| the places you never wanted me to look, i knew it would be first place you would |
[28 Jun 2005|11:41pm] |
there was a crack in our foundation so i thought i could borrow some of yours
dug through your purse and found out who you were
laughed at the things you saved from our better days
i found out how much it meant to you
i'm sure you knew how much it meant to me
i tried to put everything back in it's place, but we both know i'm not too good at that
there you go right back on your dresser right next to your comb, jewlery box, and grandmothers necklace
your room smells as convincing as sunday morning breakfast
it's like i never left this
or
like we never let it get like this
i swear if i had another chance i'd make the best of it
i can't say i would be one of the best
but i would pass any of your crazy test
sorry about going through your purse, heck i bought it anyway
not for your birthday or aniversery just because you said you wanted it
see i wasn't all bad, and it wasn't so sad, i guess now's to late pleading innocent
guilty nights and phone conversations turned to fights
the dial tone as common as hello
well anyway sorry about your purse, but it's the only place i could leave this note
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| ouch, I bet a bullet would hurt less |
[28 Jun 2005|06:13pm] |
so here's a list of events that i just don't want to miss
some how i know it's not gonna take long to break this
i'll cross off everyday with a marker marked with your name
a big fat X to seal off that day
I know exactly what you are going to say
"get over me and on with your life"
but we both know that's not gonna happen
cause without this list i'll more than likely go insane
this is just my way
some people go to spa's some people jump out of planes
i just want a constant reminder of how I enjoy every single, single day
and proof that i can make it without, i just crossed off today
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| shake it like a self processing photographic image |
[27 Jun 2005|11:04pm] |
if i layed them out side to side pretty much touching
they would stretch across my life, a timeline of sorts
memorys compacted in a type of plastic graphics with white trim
funny how i make fun but in the end they are all i got
of times, girls, friends, family, people, places, things and everything before after and inbetween
funny how i take them for granted, and funny how it's not funny at all
boxes in closets i haven't opened for more than a shirt
tucked behind jackets with logos of sports franchises i no longer adore
much like how i feel about those still images from before
hauting... how you can freeze time
reassuring that we have the abilty
like footprints on the moon
like scars from a deep wound
these pictures are forever memories of what, whom and where ever
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[25 Jun 2005|03:32pm] |
i can't even remember the last factual sentence to leave these lips
i got so many dirty little secrets and so many ruffled sheets
waking up with only socks on my feet and some her next to me
whispering every line i know in her ear until we are ready to go
up the stairs through the door onto the floor the bed and together till the sun wakes her up
i'll do it all again the next night and she'll wait by her phone for a call that will never come
and i knew this is how it would be all along, i just don't care cause i can't control myself
i'm just not that strong i'll take you all down with me before i admit i'm wrong
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[22 Jun 2005|09:49am] |
if i could grow 3 more legs i'd run so fast so far away
i say this not knowing what it'd be like running with 5 legs
but it's just a dream any way
where is my sloane peterson fictional and wonderful
something that is missing
with my 5 legs i bet i can find her
this will be my mission
if i only knew what running with 5 legs was like
if i only knew where to find my sloane peterson
this mission would be quite easy to do
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[18 Jun 2005|11:28pm] |
the only thing i regret is falling for every word that you ever said
even hello's seem so fake when taking everything into consideration
moderation monitoring every action since you thoughtless crime of passion
a reaction that so many would consider typical fashion i wouldn't hold your breath
cause you are no longer worth minute of my life, your just phase that should have never happened
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[16 Jun 2005|06:28pm] |
i know you loved that feeling when he's taking off your pants and he does it so well
he layed you down and put it in and the whole time you were thinking no, but he assured you, you should
and when he pulls out you thought it was understood that it was yours and his first and he just happened to be so good
now i want to see your face when you find out he is just another one night stand dood
so if i can find out that you can be crushed just as much as I was when i got the news
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[01 Jun 2005|10:23pm] |
alright now, please tell me who do you think you're kidding
you and those 16 year old girls ain't spin kicking
you know nothing about the life you are supposibly living
and that bandana around your face just ain't fitting
you're as stupid as all the lies you're constantly spitting
and those pants you are wearing are suppose to be for women
you're fake just like the rest of them
walking around like you're better than her and him
forgeting about all of those who have been around since it began
there is no room in this room if your just trying to fit in
come on now, honestly did you think we would let this go without kicking and screaming
you're not gonna step all over everything we believe in
this isn't a vacation, we ain't talking about swimming
it's not come and go as you please this is a mother fuckin tradition
now grab your shit and turn right back around and walk out that door that's still swinging
cause if it ain't in your heart get the fuck out the kitchen
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| justin likes to flick people off so here are a few songs changed to talk about the middle finger |
[30 May 2005|10:26pm] |
first song _____ motion city soundtrack - when your around (i'll flick YOU off)
midwest finger flick
it doesn't bend it's so strong
late night finger flicks
will say fuck you to the floor
can we flick it
can we say fuck you
my fingers are so full of fuck
i need to flick me to flick you
but all i can do
is flick you off
say fuck you dood
say fuck you guy
cause i can't fucking flick it without my finger right
the least you can do is say fuck you too
i'll say fuck you with my middle finger
i'll say it twice with two
but i just want to flick you off
so i can feel so fucking cool
fuck off aftermath
the fingers start to rise
did i truly flick you
you bet your fucking finger right
they must hate me
every single one
i flicked them all off
what i consder fun
but all i can do
is flick you off
say fuck you dood
say fuck you guy
cause i can't fucking flick it without my finger right
the least you can do is say fuck you too
i'll say fuck you with my middle finger
i'll say it twice with two
but i just want to flick you off
so i can feel so fucking cool
next tribute to justin flicking me off _________ mates of state clean out
flick off your dog flick off your dog
fingers are my words disguise fingers are my words disguise
so
flick off your dog flick off your dog
covering all fingers but one covering all fingers but one
you crucify every feeling that dog has by flicking him off
i couldn't hear a single words that you said i just saw that finger
a solid jesture this finger in his eye
crucify every feeling it has
i couldn't tell you my words with fingers but i'm glad you told your dog
glad you told it to fuck off
i couldn't tell you my words with fingers but i'm glad you told your dog
glad you told it to fuck off
you flicked it off
you flicked it off
you flicked it off
so
flick off your dog flick off your dog
fingers are my words disguise fingers are my words disguise
so listen to these songs and subsitute the lyrics and you can feel as cool as my brother justin who just loves to flick people and things off cause it makes him feel so FINGER FLICKING OFF COOL he is the shit
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[28 May 2005|10:43pm] |
i have bad habits but they don't need cleaned up with a mop and bucket
i remember why i fucked up you can't remember why you woke up in throw up
show respect for yourself if you have none for anyone else
do you even care about yourself
obviously not when a one night is worth losing so much
you're puking up everything everyone once loved about you
and all you keep asking is should you have another or two
sometimes i question if there is even a life left to save
if tomorrow doesn't change looks like i'll be the first to throw dirt in your grave
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[25 May 2005|10:11pm] |
Who was it who asked about the last mile being the hardest mile
Trying not to
spend more time looking back
There's still a bit more to go
Can't stop
measuring strike outs to home runs
Trying to justify these compromises that
have piled up and dulled my blade
Maybe we stayed too long didn't say enough,
swing hard enough
The years just sort of ran away
And the ones that follow
won't be as fun
I'll never love anything else the way that I loved this
So
you know its not gonna be easy
To just let go
But the credits they
will roll
It's getting harder and harder
To give too much of my body
and soul to a mess overrun by morons and thugs
Who's only purpose is to break
this, not hard enough to make it
Fighting on their own
We stand bound and
gagged as they pee on our rug
The end result of not a single motherfucker
willing to take the hard road
Makes it easier to watch as the door swings
slowly shut
Then there are those I'll carry with me forever, live deep in
my chest
Watched as you took your last breath on that floor in
Wilkes-Barre
The room loved you so deeply our hearts broke as you
faded
And i can never repay the lesson you left me as we rolled outta town
that night
Not a thought in my head of beginnings or endings
Make the
most of these days while they are still unfolding
Keep right on dancing while
that curtain is closing
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[19 May 2005|06:22pm] |
amazing how there are just some words that can explain exactly how you feel
but when the time comes to use them you can't even remember the first letter
i guess that' just the way of the weather one second it's sunny the next second i'm grabbing my sweater
woke up today and thought it was winter there was a frost in the air
i turned to your pillow but you were not there
sometimes i still wish i was alive
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| I'm not done screaming............... |
[17 May 2005|09:49am] |
will not back down now i"ve got no place else to run and hide to
have come
to far to buckle now can't lay this one down to the likes of you
and i don't
say that with some bullshit sense of pride
but i need you to know that i'm
not done screaming
about whether or not your foot has the right to be in
some kids face
and if that's the case than i say arm us all and we'll get
this asshole contest right under way
but it would be just like you to drag
your keyboard to a gunfight
and so long after the smoke had cleared
i
stood there all night if you had so much to say
instead of running home lion
tail between your legs
crying about some little needle stuck in your paw
I dont give a fuck if my words have grown old
i've never been so willing
to see a relationship fray
i dont give a fuck how thin this ice has become
i'm stomping on it anyway
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| so they have guns, we had eachother, looks like they won |
[11 May 2005|06:56am] |
just tell me who you are dreams don't give out every detail these days
just tell me where you are and i will come running
it's worth the risk and the loss of everything i know
around here the obvious, obviously isn't enough
i hope where you are it's just as i dreamed
wonder what it will be like when we meet
i hope it's not raining or if it is then i hope we are soking wet
i will bring my dreams we can relive all of the things
i hope i wake up soon
i hope i find you soon
we dream what we want, and i dream of you
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| it ain't monday, and it ain't raining, but that don't matter |
[06 May 2005|07:15am] |
Breathe into me, leaks out the seams, I'm sinking fast.
Inflate my soul, my
lungs are cold, try to make it last.
Feeling dead, the weight on my head
is draining me.
The Monday skies are oversized in the strangest way.
I
need you here, more than you know.
Breathe into me, leaks out the seams,
I'm sinking fast.
Inflate my soul, my lungs are cold, try to make it
last.
Feeling dead, the weight on my head is draining me.
The Monday
skies are oversized in the strangest way.
I need you here, more than you
know.
I know, I know you can change my day.
With any, anything you
say.
Anything you say. Anything.
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